Amber's Opening Speech Aug 27, 2008 2:55:27 GMT -5
Post by Julie Chen on Aug 27, 2008 2:55:27 GMT -5
Hello to all of you Jury Members, George, James, Dani, Sheila, Alison, Matty and now Dick.
I know that most, if not all of you, are surprised to be seeing me here in the final two with CJ. I'm surprised by this turn of events as well. If you asked me back in week 1, week 2, week 3, and so on... up until this point. I would have not thought I would be sitting here, writing to you all, but I am.
I would have to say that up until final 4, I thought my chance of sitting here were at poor odds. I was being told that I was in the bottom of a pecking order of who would make it, out of my alliance, past the final 4 position. So all I could do, in my alliance of 4, was to make sure that I actually got to the final 4 and take it from there. Which is what I did. I won that final 5 hoh, securing my place in the final 4, and which resulted in Alison being sent to the Jury. Sorry Alison but when Dick won Veto, I had no choice but to try to create doubt within our alliance that you were with Dick and to have you and Dick going into the final 4 would be detrimental. I felt more comfortable having it be Matty, CJ and Dick (by himself still). Finding a replacement nominee was hard to do but when CJ told me that you, Alison, wanted to "roll the dice" in chat to figure out who would be sent home, it was clear to me that I would not be putting CJ in that position to determine your fate in this game so I had to rely on Matty voting you out over CJ, which is exactly what he did.
Then CJ won the final 4 HOH, which resulted in me going up on the block with Dick. I was upset about this at first but realized this was the best case scenario for me and told CJ to go ahead and put me up, fine... whatever, but I wasn't too happy about it, it meant I had to start working. I quickly went to Dick to tell him that I was pissed at my alliance. That they want me gone and how dare they put me up on the block again as a pawn. I told Dick that I wanted to pull the rug out from them, and shock them, and also I told Dick that if I won veto he would be safe, but asked if he won veto to not vote me out. Dick won veto, taking himself off, and therefore resulting in Matty being put up in his place. Dick came through for me and voted off Matty. Thank you Dick! I'm glad you thought I was the better bet, then Matty. I didn't think I fully convinced you of that but I guess I did.
These were the two weeks that I played the hardest. Making sure that Alison was sent to the Jury house if it couldn't be Dick, and making sure that I stayed in the game over Matty. I think I did a good job there.
I know I didn't win a lot of competitions and competitions were never my strong my point. But creating doubt within' my small alliance was key and I think I did a fairly good job at doing that.
I tried hard to be in Matt's ear and CJ's ear right away, when I returned to the game, that I thought that Dick could have been with Alison and that she wasn't truly with us but more with him. Then I went to CJ, hoping he would tell Alison, that I think Dani D. is too close to Matty and she's a powerhouse and would keep Matty over any of us in our alliance and that she too had to go and soon. I was actually upset that she didn't leave sooner. I couldn't control my alliance because they were soooo out to get James R. out of the house before Dani D.
But it didn't stop me from trying to spread my paranoia around.
I don't believe that playing a competitive game is necessarily key but securing your place in the game is what matters most, so you are not constantly fighting to be safe. With my alliance being such heavy competitors I felt it was OK to let them continue make targets for themselves as the strong competitors that they were. Did I throw any comps? Never... but did I try my hardest on all of them? I don't think so...Some yes, some not really. The food competition that so many people scoffed at, is where I tried my hardest. Winning an advantage that I could share with my alliance was something I wanted to do. I wanted them to see me as a helper. However I did win immunity on week 7, during the POV competition, and that was the best thing anyone could win, next to HOH which Matty had, and I knew I was safe within our alliance. So, while my alliance fought for that POV to insure that James R. was sent to the jury house, I fought hard to win as many of the prizes as a I could figuring that one of them had to be HUGE!. Maybe that was luck to win immunity for the following week, but I didn't hesitate to throw myself straight into negative points to try to win the prizes that would result in negative points, hoping for something HUGE and that is exactly what I got... something HUGE, and my alliance didn't punish me for being selfish, actually I never heard anything about my selfishness from them... they must not have expected much from me, thanks!
Anyway, I'm not going to write a novel, but I wanted to state a few points on why I believe I should be here in the final 2 with CJ and I think I need to thank each and everyone of you, because if it wasn't for your fierce competitive nature, and creating targets for yourself, and going after each other as "powerhouses", then I don't think I would be here!